Baby Blue

Oh music
How I wish I could be you
And not

Me

Because you make sense

All things
As instruments
To measure ourselves

Breath giving life to woodwinds
Fingers dancing on strings
A living prayer
A living weakness

The ether
Took her baby blues
Right out from my skull

And how the years would hide her
From me

Those baby blues
Would surface from a mirror

I am affraid of doubt
And the ideas
Idle thoughts become

Even if
They're only in my mind

It says something
For my mental state I'm sure

There is too much contempt
In me

And
There is no music

Re all it'y

It is a bad day

For.

A good night

Baroque

Like the finger

Likes to linger

Lies white strung

Tethered to impediment

Predicts the day it will fall

Curvature of the finger

Stinger

Dreamer

Linger on Oberon

Coal clean vision everything

Window frost loveliness

Cataract sphere machine

Orbits itself unseen

Cool cost of anything

In its iris turned venom

Fatigued in a dream

Burning rose and jasmine and

Velveteen

IX

I thought I saw you in the moon

But it was just sex through an opened window

And i am a voyeur

And for a second

I can smell your fragrance

Your signature scent

And theremins rise

And I can see you

That you are galaxies

Through a telescope

And that I am exhaust fumes in a closed garage

I am eyes yellow like phlegm

I am bubonic

I am revelations

I am brightly colored centipedes

In an opened palm

I could part the light bulb from its fixture

And learn to feel

All over again

How Embarrassing...

I replace my sleep with alcohol

And then I drive

An assortment of empty bottles

In my wake

Too many bottles

And too many times doing this

Because I will run out of luck one day

Because the night is never long

Enough

And if I crash my car tonight

And die

The police will recover

Pornography

A machete

A hacksaw

And tennis balls from the trunk of my car

Tennis balls...

I feel like

I should leave

An explanation

Evitagen

Fingers creep

And I am death

And we are all death

And I want to feel every inch of myself hanging

From the rafters

Give me minimal slack

And I will ruin a good evening

I am dreaming of you tonight

I'll kill everything

Until I am

Exoskeletal

I'll kill everything

Until

I am nothing but ash

I wish

I knew what you were thinking

I wish I were a better person

I wish I could be beautiful

Like you

I wish I wish

Nevermind